April, May, and June Round-Up.

I have always been irregular with this blog, perhaps it’s part of what this blog is, as messy as I am. I posted only a couple of times between April and June, but I was pretty good in March. There is so much happening in the world, being highlighted, brought to our attention that I have not felt very much like writing my own things. Instead, I wanted to read, listen, and learn more about others. I’m still continuing to do that, but I also need my own little outlet, which is exactly what this blog is, my outlet. I have a few post ideas being put together for the next month or so and I have some plans to write about the things happening in the world, I have some personal things I wish to write about too, but I decided to start off with something light and easy.

A monthly entertainment round-up is something that I want to stick to month to month, and I decided to catch up and do a three-month catch up on everything from movies, to tv, to books, to podcasts to music. Let’s get to it.

MUSIC.

In order to make to this from being a list of 50 songs, since I am madly in love with music, I tried to keep it to the songs that really followed me through the three months.

  • Lady Gaga- Born this way; Alice and Rain on me
  • Taylor Swift- Live from Paris- Cornelia Street and Death by a thousand cuts; getaway car, all too well.
  • Fletcher-Bitter
  • Poison- What I like about you, Talk dirty to me and nothing but a good time.
  • Sam Hunt- 2016, Sinning with you and Breaking up was Easy in the 90s.
  • Kelsea Ballerini- Overshare, half of my hometown, and love me like a girl.
  • Kelly Clarkson- People like us
  • Halsey- 3am
  • Niall Horan- Small Talk
  • Luke Bryan- One Margarita
  • Survivor- Eye of the Tiger.
  • The entire Riverdale TV Soundtrack. ( This was a two-week phase that I cannot explain).
  • The Chicks (f.k.a The Dixie Chicks)- Gaslighter
  • Demi Lovato- I love me.
  • Harry Styles- Adore you

MOVIES

I’m keeping this list to the movies that I watched for the first time in these three months and loved. There were many movies I watched from the 80s, as I was on a kick, and while I liked most of the movie there were many parts of them that I realized were actually, so problematic, so we’re going to leave those out.

  • Dirty Dancing
  • Angel has Fallen
  • Say Anything
  • Extraction
  • 13 going on 30
  • Notting Hill
  • Knives out
  • Just go with it
  • Bounty Hunter
  • and of course, many hours were spent watching Harry Potter Marathons, Star Wars including The Rise of Skywalker and was reminded of how funny and good Thor Ragnorok was.

TELEVISION

You know I watch SO much TV, but these are just a few I really loved in these three months.

  • Batwoman
  • Roswell, New Mexico
  • Dead to me
  • Last Dance
  • Little fires everywhere
  • Rewatched Golden Girl but all the way through, start to end for the first time.
  • NCIS LA on demand re-runs all the dang time.

PODCASTS

  • The Regulars
  • Office Ladies
  • Wayward- Older Episodes since it’s on Hiatus because of the Pandemic

In the coming months, I hope to add to my podcast playlists. The New Day Podcast, Work in Progress with Sophia Bush, and Basic Witches are a couple I want to get deeper into as I’ve only listened to a few episodes. Have recommendations? PLEASE send them my way.

BOOKS

  • City of Girls- Elizabeth Gilbert
  • Imagine me – Tahereh Mafi

I Started There will be peace when you are done, Nico Tortorella’s Space Between and Harry Potter and The Sorcerers Stone.

COMING UP IN JULY

In July my goal is to finish There will be peace when you are done. I need to catch up on the finale episodes of Roswell, New Mexico, as well as legends of tomorrow, Supergirl and Flash, as I just kind of fell out with them because there is so much going on that’s not where my attention was. I hope to maybe be able to watch Avengers Endgame again because I saw it in Theaters only once and cannot get myself to watch it again because it’s emotional for me. I’m looking forward to watching Hamilton on Disney plus, and I hope to continue the Supernatural re-watch that I started in May, got to season three, and then halted.

until next time!

A global pandemic and Anxiety.

May is mental health awareness month, and I have not had much of a hold on my mental health to talk about it… until now.  While states are beginning to open back and life seems like it’s attempting to get back to normal (whatever that’s supposed to be), I thought now was a good time to chat about how this pandemic affected me and more specifically my mental health. It’s important to realize that EVERYONE reacts differently to a situation like this, and no one is necessarily wrong in how they respond. (Unless of course, you’re a jerk by not following guidelines and common sense and pretended to be too good to listen to science, I have no time or energy for that foolery). 

I had a hold on my mental health (specifically my anxiety) when this pandemic first kicked up into high gear… or so I thought. I lasted about a week before things began to spiral. Let me give you a little back story. I work in retail, and my store was considered essential because we sell groceries and have a pharmacy inside, among other non-essential things, so we were open, and I was working. My mom is hurt, has a terrible immune system, and still has a recovering cough from all the years of smoking (that she thankfully finally gave up over six months ago). Even if I wasn’t sick myself, I was always the culprit of bringing things home to her when I worked in daycare, so I was beyond paranoid that I was going to bring this terrible virus home to her. I’ve had pneumonia before, I’m always getting bronchitis, and I struggle with other health issues, but I was more worried about my mom than myself. The problem was that I had to work, not only was I an essential employee but I was the only one working in the house at that point, we had many bills to pay, and it just wasn’t an option to not work. I was working 6-8 hours a day at least four days a week, and I was struggling. One positive was that Misha Collins had an Instagram live session at the beginning of all of this with a psychologist Dr. Ali Mattu where he asked tons of questions, and Dr. Mattu touched upon multiple areas of mental health and how Covid is affecting it. It made me not feel crazy about how it was affecting me! He said it was normal, and that helped, he gave a few new techniques that I hadn’t tried yet, and they were great. Misha putting this together helped me a lot that even though I was struggling hard, it was normal, and it would be okay.  

(I think I need to mention that this is my journey. I’m well aware that people had it worse, some got Covid, there are thousands of health care workers right up in it day in day out, and that is a journey that I’m glad I didn’t have, and I’m thankful that those workers sacrificed so much to help those who needed it. So, as I’m telling my story, I’m in no way discounting or overlooking someone else’s.)

While I won’t go into it, I should also add that during this time, I was also having a very hard time with my sister which brought on even more financial, emotional and mental stress. I WAS HAVING IT. Eventually, I was missing work because either 1. My blood pressure would be so high it would spark dizzy spells, 2. I could not fall asleep the night before because my anxiety was so terrible and 3. I quite literally could not drag myself out of my bed, even if the room were on fire, I wasn’t budging.

I was having depressive episodes. I would become so angry upon seeing someone browsing and buying non-essential things, I sometimes, instead of helping them, I needed to walk away from them. Why are you out here buying dish towels, new plate sets and kitchen appliances, and risking me and everyone else? You could be home, I’d like to be home, and I can’t be, and you might not look sick, but you could be sick, but here you are, and you’re unbelievably selfish, is just the tip of what I was feeling. I have been overwhelmed time and time again, and I usually have bouts of anxiousness that I have to work through, and then I put my hair up and handle it. That wasn’t the case here.

 I was in all definitions, an absolute train wreck.  

Finally, I decided that I had to take some time off. We’d gotten those stimulus checks that made me be able to justify it. (of course, that only went so far, I missed two paychecks, and I’m right back to struggling) but it came down to the fact that I had no choice. My anxiety, anger, and sadness were the worst I had seen it in such a long time. None of my usual fixes were doing anything, my blood pressure was dangerously high, I was miserable, and I had to put my health first, which was incredibly hard for me to do. I thought of more than a dozen reasons why I couldn’t take off for two weeks. Thankfully my job made it very easy to do this, although I hated hearing the words “No, it can’t be a paid leave, we had to draw the line somewhere” the line being my mental health wasn’t good enough, but the process still went rather smoothly.

During this two week period, I did everything I could to pull myself together. I only left the house to do our grocery shopping and my grandma’s grocery shopping when she needed it. I utilized my conquest journal planners more than ever. Planning out movies night (movies I’d wanted to watch and never got the chance too), keeping track of my blood pressure, anxiety levels, if I took my vitamins, and more. I made it a point to get up by at least 9 (once I got my sleeping on track) and do some reading with my coffee. I absolutely love cozying up in bed with coffee and a good book, from Felicia Day’s Embrace your weird, to Glennon Doyle’s Untamed, many books kept me company.  I never missed The Regulars Podcast on YouTube at 12:30, so even if I slept in a bit (if I had a hard time the night before), I never slept later than 11:30 because of The Regulars Podcast, and it truthfully became my saving grace. I knew for at least one hour I could throw in my headphones and have a giant laugh, good conversation, and float away. Some of the days when I felt a little out of sorts, I would put on makeup and curl my hair, just because and I made sure to prioritize my school work as to get behind and bring about more stress.

Most importantly, I think, was I started writing again. One night I had just watched an episode of TV that really sparked something, so I sat down and wrote a scene, then another and then another. I guess it was fan fiction, but it was a story, nonetheless. That sparked even more writing, and I’m currently on Act 9 of a story that I’m just going where my pen takes me. I just throw on my headphones, get lost in the music, and tell a story.  As much easier as it is to type, having to put pen to paper slows my mind down a little, and I find it to be so much better when mapping out where you want a story to go! I hadn’t written much that wasn’t a paper or school, or the occasional blog post, and I felt a sense of accomplishment when I’d finished a scene that I hadn’t felt in quite some time.

 I also decided and started the process of changing my college major. While I love Environmental Studies, I began to love Psychology even more. I took it as a minor because I knew I would enjoy it, and then I found myself realizing that I actually did, in fact, know what I wanted to do as a career. I could never answer the question of “What do you want to do with your degree? And it was eating at me. Then it suddenly became clear. I wanted to be a psychologist, a therapist; I want to work in behavioral and mental health. I want to help people, to let them know that they’re not alone, the same fight I’m fighting, so many others are as well. I know it took a long time for me to get any kind of idea as to what was happening to me, and I did it alone, and I still continue to fight it alone (and when I say alone I mean there’s no one around me to help me through these things, there are other online resources and such that I use, and I know that I am not truly alone in it), and it’s not easy, but it’s the hand I’ve been dealt. I want to do something that makes someone’s life maybe just a little bit easier.  

When I finally went back to work, I was anxious, of course, but feeling better. Most were happy to see me, some (a couple of my bosses) weren’t thrilled with me for missing work, but I told myself I wouldn’t apologize for putting my mental health first and I didn’t, not once. Not apologizing for my anxiety attacks, my panic attacks, my depressive episodes, is not easy at all; it’s something I’m working on, and it’s something that I’m slowly getting better at. The fight against mental illness is apart of me, it’s a part of anyone who is fighting, and we’re strong people. It might not always feel that way, but we are. Everyone is dealing with this pandemic differently. Some are in isolation and having a hard time with that; some like me, can’t be in isolation, and are having a hard time with that. Some are losing loved ones, caring for other people loved ones, missing their family, missing weddings, graduations, baby doctor appointments, and so much more, and we’re all struggling, and it is all valid.  

May is just a month. One month dedicated to the battle of mental health, but for most of us, we battle it 12 months a year, and we’ve been hit with quite a curveball that not all of us were able to handle. States might be opening back up, but it doesn’t mean that this pandemic is over, and that’s not my anxiety talking, that is just a fact. Some people might be itching to get back out there and get back to their version of normal, but I don’t think things will or should just go back to normal. I’m going to listen to myself when deciding when I feel comfortable going back out again because even going to a friend’s bonfire with five people still seems like more than I’m ready for.

I think the most important thing is to listen to yourself. Trust yourself. You’ll know when you’re ready; you’ll know when you need to take a step back, you’ll know what is best for you and your family.  

Just remember to

Always Keep Fighting.

24 Star Wars Movie Saga Questions.

I knew I wanted to do a Star Wars related post for May 4th, but I just wasn’t quite sure what I wanted to do. I absolutely love Star Wars, but I am a fan of the movies. I have never read the comics, and I haven’t gotten around to watching the TV shows, except for Mandalorian, and I have not read the book yet either. Some would say that doesn’t make me a real Star Wars fan, and well, you can have your opinion, but I consider myself one anyways.

I decided to do a questionnaire type post which I’ve never done before! So I gathered up a bunch of Star Wars related questions from various corners of the internet and put together the ones I knew I could answer, as they weren’t too complicated or too far out of my realm of Star Wars Cinema love.

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Star Wars Questionaire 

Favorite movie In the prequels: Revenge of the Sith: Obi-Wan’s battle with Anakin on the Lava is incredible. When Obi-Wan is telling Anakin how he was supposed to save them, not destroy them, that scene gets me every time.

Favorite movie in the originals: Return of the Jedi. In this movie, Luke is really figuring himself out, he’s a little more sure of himself, less whiny, and I like that. I love the addition of Ewoks too!

Favorite movie from the Sequels: The Rise of Skywalker: I know that many of you have multiple opinions of the sequels and this one specifically. But for me, personally, I loved it. In a Saga like this one, it can be so hard to find a way to pull so much content together, and on top of that finding a way to deal with not having an actual Carrie Fisher to work with, I cannot imagine how hard it is. It was REALLY important to me to have Leia in this film, and I’m glad they managed to figure out how to do that, because truthfully if she didn’t play the role that she does here, I think my opinion would be a bit different. If you have not watched it yet, it drops on Disney plus today, and I highly recommend it.

Least Favorite Movie: Not including the spin-offs because then I would say Rogue One. Attack of the clones does not grab my attention like the rest of them do. It’s a good movie, just not my favorite although The Battle of Geonosis was pretty cool. I can honestly say that there is not a single Star Wars movie that I dislike. Some are not my favorites, but I still like them.

What Era would you have liked to be apart of? I would have wanted to be apart of the Original Era. An adventure with Han Solo and Chewie on the falcon is a dream.

Favorite Villain? How could I not say Darth Vader, but I especially liked Kylo Ren as well, both of their journeys to the dark side were fascinating. But Palpatine is just evil, pure absolute evil. From his games as Supreme Chancellor all the way through, pure evil.

Favorite Characters from the originals: Han Solo. He’s just too cool. Even when he’s a jerk, he’s still cool.

Favorite character from the prequel: This is hard. Ewan McGregor’s Obi-Wan is pretty cool to me, but I have always loved Yoda, so Yoda, for sure.

Favorite Character from the Sequels: I initially want to say, Poe Damien. I just really like his style and the way he comes off the screen. Also, because I have such a love for Adam Driver, I really love Kylo Ren. Good or Evil, he plays it so well.

Favorite non-human character: (Besides Yoda because I already used him above): Jar Jar Binks makes me laugh every time. I’m obsessed with Chewie. The Ewoks are so cute. The porgs are precious, so precious in fact that my 27-year-old ass has a stuffed animal porg, and it’s one of my favorite things.

Favorite Villain? How could I not say Darth Vader, but I especially liked Kylo Ren as well, both of their journeys to the dark side were fascinating. But Palpatine is just evil, pure absolute evil. From his games as Supreme Chancellor all the way through, pure evil.

Favorite Droid? C3PO is always a god damn treat. Whether it’s his lines or the delivery of them, he brings something special to the screen.

If you could be one of the characters, who would you choose, and why? I think I’d have to stick with Leia. I love how even when she’s in distress, she’s not a damsel in distress. She sometimes needs saving, but she’s not helpless. She’s defiant, and she’s strong, she’s smart, she’s loving, she’s commanding. She has so many incredible qualities.

What Jedi master would you prefer: I think I’d prefer Qui-Gon. He was a bit less stuck up than the rest. Not that I think the Jedi are bad, they just are particular in their ways, which I guess you’d have to be, but I like how Qui-Gon pushes that a little bit.

Favorite planet: It might be sand filled, but the view is gorgeous. There are so many moments that matter that are done on this planet.

Would you prefer to be fighting on the front lines or in a more technical role?: This is a tough one. I’m not the most technically savvy person, but I’m not sure I’d be ready to be in the middle of the fight, being a pilot and such so I think many I’d be better in a more technical role.

What would your Star Wars name be: I want to immediately say Rae because that’s my middle name, and I love it, but that’s kind of already taken. I also know that there are a lot of Star Wars name generators out there, and I checked them out, but nothing really spoke to me. My Rae is spelled differently, so I think it’s fair, and this is my questionnaire, so I’m going with Rae. 😉 If you have a better suggestion, lay it on me!

Favorite Quote: I don’t believe that it is possible to pick just one. I love Han Solo’s “never tell me the odds” and “Laugh it up, fuzzball.” I love Yodas. “No, try not. Do or do not. There is no try”. Qui-Gon’s “Your focus determines your reality.” And of course, as a person who believes in the vibe people bring, trusting your instinct and your gut Obi-Wan’s “Your eyes can deceive you. Don’t trust them,” is forever a favorite.

Favorite Cinematography moment: The two moons moment with Luke. I don’t see how you top that. I did a project for my film class on this movie, and I had to analyze the shit out of it. I fell even more in love with it the more I dove in.

Favorite Moment in general: While it was sad when Luke died, the set up was incredible. I think I’d say the same about the way that Leia died. Yoda’s lightsaber fight with Palpatine was also very cool. When the clones turn on the Jedi, and it’s revealed Palpatine had the just waiting for his signal to attack, I’ll never forget that the first time I watched it. Those moments stick out in my mind right away.

Jedi or Sith: I would much prefer to be a Jedi, but my emotions would probably screw that up for me. Fighting the dark side would be hard, I could do it, but it would be a lot of work.

What brought you into Star Wars? I have only been watching Star Wars for maybe four years now. Co-workers of mine kept telling me how much I’d like it. And I knew I would because I was (and still am) really into the whole sci-fi/fantasy genre, but I had just never gotten around to watching. I was in a car accident in December, and I had to stay home for a week due to whiplash, but mostly my back, I have a bad lower back, so I had to be cautious. During this week at home, I decided it was the perfect time to watch the movies. They were on my on-demand system on my TV, and I watched the Originals and the Prequels in Two Days, and I was hooked within minutes of A New Hope. (I watched them 4,5,6,1,2,3). I eventually watched Rogue One: A Star Wars Story and Episode 7- The Force Awakens. The Last Jedi was the first movie I saw in theaters; then I saw Solo: A Star Wars Story, and of course, on opening night, I went and saw The Rise of Skywalker. The rest is history.

What does Star Wars mean to you? Many probably say it is a reminder of their childhood or something, but for me, I guess you could say it’s a safe space, especially when the worlds a little crazy. The Star Wars movies have become my go-to movies when I’m in a mood. If I have anxiety or a depressive episode, or I just had a bad day, they’re there. I pay for Disney Plus simply because then I have access to them all.

What part of the Star Wars world have you yet to dive into? When the Mandalorian was released, I was unsure if I would like it. Boy was I wrong, I absolutely loved it, and I’m anxiously awaiting more. My next Star Wars adventure is going to be to watch all of the clone wars. I’m also big into reading, so I think I’d like to add some Star Wars stories to my bookshelf soon.

I am not perfect. I forget things, I don’t have the battle names memorized, I’m working on understanding all of the history of this world, and like I said I’ve only seen the movies, but I deeply love this Universe. The directing, the score, the writing, the acting, the cinematography, it is all so wonderfully put together. I’ve noticed that I’m one of those fans that just love it, I don’t have much critique on anything, at least nothing significant. I simply ENJOY the entertainment it provides. I’m not sure what I hope for the future, but this world has never let me down before, so I’m not expecting it too. I’m excited about the future of Star Wars because let’s face it; there are so many more stories to tell.

may the force be with you

Aloha, Hawaii 5-0.

I’ve had the unfortunate luck of having a few too many shows ending all at once. Luckily most are just ending and not canceled, and while closer is nice, it doesn’t really make it any less sad. For some reason, the end of Hawaii 5-0 hits different. I started watching on Netflix only maybe two years ago? And then religiously watched every Friday night from then on. I loved the original cast, I loved the in the middle cast, and I love the cast we have now, I just love it all. Maybe it’s the Aloha vibe that quite easily and obviously radiates off the screen, the amazing storytelling, the great cast members, directors and writers, and maybe all three and more all wrapped up, but it makes me truly sad to see this show end. I know I’m not alone in this feeling but the vibe that Hawaii 5-0 brings out is just so warm and inviting, and I love how tight-knit everyone is, and they just make you feel like you’re right in the middle of all of that when you’re watching and it is just such a nice feeling to get lost in a tv show like that.

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I’m always a big fan of the strong, kick-ass woman on TV, and this show had no shortage. From Catherine to Doris, Renee Grover, Noelani, Kono, Tani, Quinn, and more. Even when I question Catherine and Doris, it was no doubt interesting when they appeared. Renee might not have been on all the time but she brought a special vibe to any episode she did appear on. Noelani was such a sweet addition in the last few years. Kono was just a badass character, and honestly, Grace Park has a fan for life. Tani Rey quickly became one of my favorite TV characters, I love everything about her attitude and her personality. I was a big fan of Katrina Law before Hawaii 5-0, and I truly wish we got to see more of her! I really love her in this role, and I’m excited for whatever her next project ends up being.   I adore anything that Jorge Garcia is a part o,f, and I absolutely adored Jerry to pieces! I would scream at Steve through the TV to give him a badge for a million episodes and when it finally happened… I will not lie… I cried. I always perked up when Kamekona was on and the interactions with the team and Flippa. Adam Noshimuri/Ian Anthony Dale is an absolute dreamboat, and I will follow his career ANYWHERE. I loved watching Daniel Dae Kim on Lost and fell even more in love with him as Chin Ho Kelly. When Daniel and Grace left, I understood wh,y, but man, did it break my heart to see them go. Chi McBride as Lou Grover will forever be in my top ten of favorite characters. He ALWAYS made me laugh. I can never think of a Halloween episode of TV without thinking about Max. Duke is the character that when he shows up, you know shit is going to get handled. Junior was such a welcome treat of addition to the show as well. I loved exploring his background and his life, and I’m glad we got some Junior and Tani love before the end. Terry Quinn is incredible; I brought my love of him from Lost over to my love for him as Joe White. I’m known to cry… well all the time… BUT especially when there is a death on TV and man, oh, man did I BLUBBER when Joe White died. Gerard Hirsch/Willy Garson is one of my favorite guest stars, not only because I just adore Willy from my love of Sex in the city but also because the character of Hirsch is such a god damn treat every single time he’s on the screen. I know there there are so, so many more characters and guest stars that I didn’t mention, but honestly, I probably loved them because I just loved everyone on this beautiful show… but perhaps no one more than McDanno.

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It’s obvious to me that I’m going to miss McDanno more than anything. Not even like just Steve or just Danny, but the two of them together. I watch a lot of TV, and there is just nothing like this relationship. I never watched the OG Hawaii 5-0, but I cannot imagine any other two actions, of any TV show, having the kind of relationship that Steve and Danny do. The way that they argue, laugh, talk, check-in with each other, roll things off of each other, whether that’s advice or the usual jabs. I feel like the ultimate friendship goals is a Steve to your Danny and vise versa. Minus the speeding, bullets, and jumping out of planes, please, and thank you. It makes me sad right now, writing this thinking that this is the LAST McDanno interaction on our TVs. It genuinely makes my heart hurt because it is such a special relationship. Alex O’loughlin and Scott Cann, no doubt, have a fan forever and always.

I’m going to be fully prepared with a little tequila and a LOT of tissues. I’m going to cry with no shame, celebrate ten years of family and entertainment, while also mourning the loss of ANOTHER great TV show.

Here’s to hoping we all have found or will find the Steve to our Dannys and our Dannys to our Steves.

 

The End of The Magicians

I have so many emotions that next week is the finale Magicians episode… ever. When I read the news I actually started crying, one: because I was not expecting it… at all and two: because this show has been such a highlight for me. I love the story, I love the characters, the actors, the entire concept of it. To be losing something that quickly became so special to me… quite honestly sucks. I never read the books, but from what I’ve read, the story John McNamara and Sera Gambles put together have been only loosely based on the books, and they’ve done an incredible job. From the very beginning, I was hooked, I’m so glad that while aimlessly browsing Netflix probably a year ago, I stopped on this one because it’s been such a treat of TV viewing and an excellent chance to get lost in magic.

As much as the story as a whole captivated me from the beginning, the characters, together and on their own, truly make everything come together in the most spectacular way. While it would seem, at least at the start, to me that Quentin is meant to be the main character, everyone else has their own stories too. And they get their equal time to shine, and it’s clear that their journeys are equally important. They’re all are incredibly meaningful and complex and extraordinary.

Let us chat about those extraordinary characters.

Quentin: As a nerd who constantly is allowing herself to get lost in books, and fictional TV shows and movies, to see the character of Q hold on to the story of Fillory so much made my heart beam. Even though his illusions of that world were quite honestly shattered when reality hits, it was still important for me to see the “main” character on a show feel that passionately about a fictional world. Q had such a big heart, and because of that heart, and the characters affect on me, I was more than heartbroken when he died. While I understood why, story-wise, it could make sense, I bawled my freaking eyes out. I’ll miss Q’s quirkiness, his heart, and of course, the life with Eliot, in THIS timeline that never was.

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Elliot and Margo: The team that is strong on their own but 10x stronger together. Margo and Eliott might not be the high king or queen of fillory anymore, but they’ll forever be my king and queen.

Eliot: From the moment we met him, he became one of my favorite characters and the more and more complex that he became the more I fell in love with him. It doesn’t hurt that Hale Appleman is an absolutely stunning actor either; with one hell of a singing voice. He’s one of those characters where you feel like when he’s sad, you’re sad, when he’s happy, you’re happy, you know what I mean? I’m truly going to miss Eliot and I hope to see more of Hale Appleman’s talent sooner rather than later!

Margo: Following Margo through season four, without Eliot, was an incredible journey. We got a little bit of an inside look into what is behind that tall and strong emotional wall that margo has built so beautifully around herself. Being the king of Fillory is important to her but not as important as saving Eliot. This is one thing that really highlights the importance of this friendship. She is loud, she is sassy, she knows what she wants, and I just absolutely adore everything about her. oh and the eye patch? one liners? come on. I’ll be the first to admit that I watch a lot of TV and Margo Hanson is hands down one of the best characters ever. Summer Bishil is an absolute dream.  I’ll deeply miss those sassy one-liners and watching Margo open up and grow in the beautiful way we’ve seen throughout the seasons. #OvaryUp

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Julia: Starting out as Q’s best friend, a Brakebills reject and an outsider at first and became one incredibly strong lady. My favorite thing about her is her determination. She was always determined to be more than she was, her stubborn determination is motivating. Her ability to overcome tragedy is inspiring. Julias decision to walk away from being a goddess in order to save the quest is a testament to Julia’s character.

Alice: I love how in the beginning she was afraid to be the smart one but then eventually she was like whatever, I have an idea, move over and she let her brain be her greatest strength. She no longer saw it as a weakness and I think she found her voice in that. She made some mistakes along the seasons, and there were a few times where I could be founding screaming “Alice what are you doing?!”, but I also admire how she still says she did everything she did because she thought it was the right thing to do.

Kady:  Kady is most definitely a complicated, complex character. She is without question strong as hell, she is a fighter, one of the best, in my opinion. She isn’t afraid to get her hands dirty and get shit done. Oh and Jades voice? uhfreakinmazing.

Penny: Penny’s ability to travel makes him quite important and of course, different than all the rest. While Penny was an ass, I was heartbroken when he died because I loved that part of him. I loved his sass and his attitude and while Penny 23 is quite wonderful, I do miss the parts that make the 2  different earth Pennys so different. I do enjoy that we’ve gotten a little more backstory on Penny in the last few episodes and while it was a little sad, I’m glad we at least got a glimpse.

Fen: I deeply love how innocent Fen is, and how much knowledge of fillory he has because she is a Fillorian. She has a much different perspective of things and I absolutely love that. One thing I really wish we had more time to explore is Fen coming into her own. We sometimes saw glimpses and in the last episode we saw her stand up to everyone, I just wish we had a little more time to get a little bit more.

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Josh: The Chef. I love when Josh tries to make everyone feel better with something he baked because it’s such a mundane human non-magic having thing to do (Even though he is very much so a magician). I feel like the character of Josh also has the ability to lighten things up too, which is always welcome. I also must say that Margo and Josh together is something I never would have expected but something that I absolutely adore.

On top of the “main” characters, there were so many wonderful others! Whenever Todd showed up I was always guaranteed to laugh. Marina was so bad but I still kind of loved it. Zelda was the character I never expected to love as much as I do. She was so stiffy in the beginning, and while she remained true to herself through the seasons, she also opened up just a LITTLE and that was nice. Dean Fogg was just fun. Not only is Rick Worthy absolutely wonderful in anything he does, but the character of Dean Fogg was also just written in the best way. Alices parents; they were quite interesting which is why I’m mentioning them. While they weren’t exactly what Alice always hoped, they certainly added something different to the ,show. The character of the dark king has been wonderful, and Sean Maguire is PERFECT in this role, just absolutely perfect. Mayakovsky, Martin and Jane Chatwin, the despisable Christopher Plover, all that I’ve mentioned and many more (that I have inevitably forgotten), all in their own right, brought magic to any story or any scene they were in. The show has a cast of immeasurable talent and I will 100% be tuning in to any of there next adventures!

Let’s talk about episodes!

Whenever I do a post like this, and quite honestly, so many of my shows are ending, and I’m sick of it… just sick. BUT whenever I do these I’m also super anxious I’ll miss out on an episode that was so wonderful, I’ll be kicking myself in the ass for not highlighting it, so with the Magicians, honestly every episode is wonderful in its own way so I’m highlighting the ones that immediately came to my terrible memory when I thought about putting this post together!

First off, THE MUSICALS. Every single god damn one of them. My favorite one though? Season four, Episode 10. Not only is this episode one of my favorites because it’s a highlight in Margo’s journey to save Eliot, but it also has one of my absolutely favorite revelations and speeches from Margo and then to top it off it has the most badass musical compilations ever. It is truly an episode I could watch a hundred times.

A life in the day: Season Three, Episode Five. Q and Eliot share their lives together in another timeline. There are clips of this episode that just instantly play in my head whenever I think about it because it is just that memorable and magical.

Escape from the happy place: Season Four, Episode Five: When Eliot has to face his worst memory/regret, and he recalls Q and himself talking about their life in the other timeline, and Q brings up it becoming a reality. It’s clear that Eliot is freaking out, so he just deters the entire idea. I could not stop yelling the TV that Eliot was being an absolute idiot, and he knew he was, but at the same time, I get why he was probably so afraid of the idea. It was a heartbreakingly, beautiful moment.

Remedial Battle Magic: Season One, Episode Eleven. I think does a really good job of highlighting how complex sexuality and well… love can be. Quentin ends up having an intense attraction to Margo and Eliot while still loving Alice. Eliot tries to cover up heartbreak with it, but it doesn’t work, and Margo is 100% unapologetic about it, which I love.  I also appreciated that it didn’t just happen, and then it was never spoken of or had no effect after. It had a lot of effect on Q and Alices’ relationship, it opened the door for Eliot and Qs feelings and more.

Six different stories about magic: Season Three, Episode Eight. The fact that so much of this episode was completely silent was stunning. I was in complete awe. Marlee Beth Matlin is an incredible actress, and her work in this episode was nothing but gorgeous. I also loved seeing more about Zelda through the addition of her character.

The Fillorian Candidate: Season three, Episode Twelve: What sticks out to me most, being the animal lover that I am, is that Margo won the crown because she listened to the animals who take up most of the Fillorian Population. It was such a unique way to make this happen.

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No better to be safe than sorry: Season Four, Episode Thirteen. Quentins Death hurts to even think about, but the episode and the write off was wonderfully done. I also love the stories that came after this moment. I love how the writers had all the characters deal with his death differently, in their own ways. While Julia and Alice pretty much isolated themselves, they still did so differently. I think it was an important message as to how people can grieve the same person so differently.

The mountain of ghosts: Season Five, Episode Three. I had wanted a conversation between Alice and Eliot about Q for a while, but I loved the decision to wait it out, and make it so hard because it is a hard conversation! They both loved him deeply, and I believe that Q loved them both, deeply and to find common ground on that concept was important for both of them to begin healing from the loss. I think it was beautifully done.

Garden Variety Homicide: Season Five, Episode Eight: Eliot and Margo switching bodies was an entirely new level to their friendship and connection that I didn’t know I needed, but I’m so happy that we got to explore. Summer Bishil and Hale Appleman did such an incredible job of interpreting each other’s characters, it was so much fun to watch.

A huge thank you to Lev Grossman, who wrote the books ( that I fully intend on reading) to John McNamara and Sera Gambles for making The Magicians what it is. To everyone behind the camera who gave us the perfect shots, the music, all of it. The INCREDIBLE cast who brought these characters to life in such a mindblowing way. I’m grateful for this story, the inspiration it gave me, the hours of getting lost in it on Netflix, and I can’t wait to follow the writers and creators and cast on their next adventures!

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Glennon Doyle’s: Untamed.

Since the moment that Glennon Doyle announced she would soon be releasing another book, I was ecstatic. I always intend for these kinds of posts to be a review of the book, but they end up being love letters to them, in a way. I truly love this book, and love can be messy. As you’ll continue to read, this is not a poised article of any kind. It is a post of my feelings towards this incredible book with no real intention of perfection. But I do hope, after reading, you’ll realize we could all use Glennon’s words in our lives.

I’ve said it time and time again, but her book “Love Warrior” truly changed me. It helped me to open my eyes to think that I had firmly had my eyes closed to… the thought of something different. The thought that somehow I could come out of my mess, whole. In Untamed, I found myself believing that while I was still a mess, that mess was just a part of me, that mess was not me. I took control of that mess, owned up to it and let it free. A line in this book that she comes back to a couple of times is about being a god damn cheetah. When I first read it, it was like a lightbulb went off inside of me. Much like the cheetah she mentions, I’m also not crazy, I’m just not meant to be caged or wait for it… Tamed. But like many, I’ve been conditioned to be tamed. To stay in line, to be quiet, not take up space, keep my thoughts to myself so any thought of going out of line, speaking up, was beyond terrifying. But the moment you realize that it is okay… not just okay but a god damn right to release yourself in order to find yourself… it’s quite a feeling.

I am a god damn cheetah.

Glennon has this uncanny ability to take the words right out of my brain and put them on paper and help me to better understand exactly what I’ve been trying to articulate to myself. The journey of finding yourself, loving yourself, releasing yourself, being yourself is not easy. In a world where everyone seems to be telling you to sit down and shut up, it is incredibly hard to stand up and say no thank you, I will no longer be silent. It is incredibly hard to find love in what you see are imperfections, to realize they do not define you, they’re just a part of you, and every part of you is wonderful. It’s all okay because we can do hard things.

We can do hard things.

Since reading this line in untamed, I find myself thinking of that phrase a lot. When I’m not sure I can do something, I tell myself, “we can do hard things” I take a deep breath, and I do my very best at whatever that thing is that I thought I couldn’t do.

Glennon and I seem to be very different. We don’t have much in common, and yet we do, We’ve had different life paths, and yet, I still manage to relate to her struggle and her journey to find herself, be herself, love herself. I hope one day to relate to the success of being exactly who you were always meant to be. I struggle with food, just in the opposite way Glennon had, I struggle with self-image, I struggle with depression, and I struggle SO HARD with anxiety. I’m emotional, and I’m empathic, and when I feel things, I feel them so hard. And for the longest time, I saw all of that as negatives, and it took until probably only two years before I started to believe that they were positive things, unique things, good things… and Glennon’s words about her daughter strengthened that knowing. In her book, she writes,” Tish is sensitive, and that is her superpower” I had never thought about it that way, but I’ll be damned if I never see my sensitive self as a superpower again… because it’s the truth.

Untamed also makes me feel better to know that while I’m 27, and I’m not quite there yet, that the journey to becoming untamed is not a quick one or an easy one. Sometimes you do need to fall down so hard, to understand and find the strength to get back up, to believe that you will get back up, and you will uncage yourself… maybe not today… but someday… as long as you keep getting up.

During these uncertain times, my anxiety has been really high, as I’m sure I’m not alone in that. I’ve found that journaling and using my planner are helpful tools and relatively new tools. Lately, I’ve found myself taking phrases from “untamed” and writing them in my planner. It gives me a calmness to write them, and calmness to look back at them. It’s something I’m grateful for, Glennon I am grateful that you’ve shared your word, there are not enough words I can ramble on with that can express that.

On top of all of that, Glennon’s sobriety, her found love with Abby, her blended family, her fight with Together Rising, and so much more are all so incredibly inspiring to me. I’m only 27, and while sometimes that number freaks me out, I’m learning that it’s okay to STILL be figuring myself out. We’re all still figuring ourselves out, and in the words of Sophia Bush that I just adore, “We’re allowed to be a work in progress and a masterpiece at the same time”.

I believe I’ll be finding myself referring back to Glennon’s words in Untamed, much like I’ve found myself rereading her words in Love Warrior quite a few times as I’m navigating this world. It’s clear that inspiration and motivation that comes from others is helpful, but it’s also clear that everyone’s journey is their own, no one is the same, and you need to find the strength within to get yourself out.  But in knowing that, It’s also clear that knowing others have made it to the seemingly “other side” is beneficial to know, especially on days when it feels like there is no “other side”.

On both the good days and the bad days, I’ll continue to remember two things from “Untamed”:

I am a god damn cheetah, who can do hard things.

I highly recommend following Glennon on Instagram @/glennondoyle, on twitter @/glennondoyle, following the incredible work of together rising, and, of course, grabbing a copy of Untamed (and honestly, Love Warrior too).

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No matter what the mood, music always helps.

A major way that I help keep my anxiety in check is music. As my anxiety has been a little nutty lately, I have been turning to music a lot. If I’m doing homework and I’m having a hard time concentrating because my mind is wandering, music helps. If I’m journaling or using my planner, but it’s still too loud, music helps. If, like right now, I’m putting a blog post together, music helps (shout out to Kelsea Ballerini for the new album that I have blasting right now). If I can’t sleep, and my usual ocean sounds are not doing the trick, music helps. If I decide I need to go for a drive, music helps…

Music always helps

So since it is Friday, and music is usually released on Fridays, I figured it was a hell of a time to brag about some incredible music that’s been released in the last couple of months. I tried to keep it to one artist to one song, but you’ll see I broke my own rule for a couple of them because it was absolutely necessary.

 

Songs that I’m vibing with right now. 

1. Kelsea Ballerini dropped a new album one week ago, self-titled: Kelsea. Over the last year or so she has become one of my absolute favorite artists, country or otherwise, so I was very excited for this album drop. In all honesty, I’d tell you to listen to the entire album because the album is stellar. There is not a single song on there that I do not absolutely love, but I did narrow it down to four that I have on repeat the MOST. (Also highly recommend listening to LA and Club as well, she dropped those as singles way before the album dropped and they’re so relatable!)

  • Hole in the bottle
  • The other girl- Duet with Halsey
  • The way I used to
  • Half of my hometown- Duet with Kenny Chesney

2. Niall Horan also dropped an album a little bit ago. I was never much for one direction, a song here and there, and then with his other solo projects there was a song here and there that I’d love but with this album? I truly adore every single song on the entire record. The entire album has the most wonderful vibe surrounding it and I felt wonderful after playing through it! I managed to narrow it down to the four that I’m loving the most, but honestly run through the ENTIRE album and you’ll probably thank me for it later.

  • Small talk
  • Dear Patience
  • Cross your mind
  • Still

3. Halsey dropped her highly anticipated (at least most certainly by me) new album, Manic, in January and truly what a wonderful way to kick off the new year. I pretty much love anything Halsey does and this album was absolutely no exception. I also managed to narrow the album down to four of my absolute favorites.

  • 3am
  • I hate everybody
  • you should be sad
  • without me

Okay, I’ll stop breaking my own rule now.

4. Demi Lovato: I love me.

5. Gabby Barrett: I hope.

6. Jonas Brothers: What a man gotta do

7. Dixie Chicks: Gaslighter

8. All-time low- Sleeping in (Their new album drops April 3rd and I could not be more excited about it).

9. Alisha Pace- Like I like me

10. Four years strong: Get out of my head

11. Sam Hunt: Sinning with you

12. Bush: Flowers on a grave

13. Luke Bryan: One Margarita

14. Taylor Swift: Only the young

15. 5 seconds of summer: Wildflower

16. Harry Styles: Adore you

17. Selena Gomez- Lose you to love me

There are so many more songs that I have floating around on my millions of playlists but to not lose my mind I’m trying to pick which ones to include I kept it to ones that have been recently released,  and maybe someday I’ll conquer the terrifying thought of ranking my favorite songs, but we’re so not ready to tackle that project. My musical vibe is all over the place. For me, it’s less about the genre and more about the content of the song. There are times where I’m all about country music, and times where I’m all about that pop-punk music, but for the most part, my playlists are full of every kind of genre imaginable (except usually rap because I usually just cannot).

Does music help you?  Are your playlists as out there as mine can be? Do you have a song or artist that should be listening to that I didn’t mention? Tell me! Drop me a comment or tweet me @/amandaraee_x3 I wanna hear your suggestions!

Planners, Journals, and Anxiety

I am always looking for tips and tricks to handle my anxiety. I’ve talked about it before that music, TV, my favorite movies, a hot shower, a good book, cooking, writing it out, are all things that I do when my anxiety gets to be too much. Recently, with the coronavirus, my anxiety has been all over the place. I initially thought I was handling it all just fine, but then I went back to work (I work in retail, we’re not closing, probably ever, and I have to be there), and it turns out, jokes on me, I am so not handling it well. It’s only gotten worse since then, as I am more and more paranoid about not so much getting it myself but bringing home and giving it to my mom. BUT I found a new strategy that is being incredibly helpful in getting the job done.

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A while back I started making it a point to follow some Supernatural, SPNFamily members on twitter, one of those people ended up being Shelley or @/Quest_Journals on twitter! I’m not a very organized person, at all, but I have always entertained the idea of getting a planner and getting my shit together, both in life and with this blog, but every planner I’d get was honestly… lame. It didn’t intrigue me to keep opening it and writing it in so I’d just stop, and I’d still be unbelievably unorganized with a bunch of half touched planners. That changed when I first saw Shelley’s journals! Not only does she have Supernatural merchandise, which that alone would have been enough for me, but she also has Harry Potter merchandise (all officially licensed!) and I instantly fell in love with the products from just the pictures. I had the extra money so I ordered a Supernatural planner for my blog organization, keeping track of the abundance of TV shows I’m currently watching, and more. Then I ordered a Ravenclaw Harry Potter one for my day to day things, such as work, school assignments, plans, appointments, things of that nature. I also got some super cute stickers because you must have stickers. What I thought was just buying some cute tools to get myself more organized, and have a little more control over things, turned out to also be a tool to help me with my anxiety, especially during this pandemic.

Since buying the planners I have really committed to the entire process. I have stickers, pens, washi tape, markers, oh so many markers. I have a Pinterest board dedicated to just journaling and planners (THERE ARE SO MANY IDEAS), and after a couple of weeks, I think I finally have it all figured out, even if I do keep changing things up! I have all the planners, my markers, stickers, etc. in a tote bag and when I have the time I take everything out, either laid out on my bed or on my desk, depending on where I’m feeling like sitting, and I just get lost in them. Writing things out, finding quotes to add, decorating it, I’ve noticed hours go by without realizing it because I’m just focused on that and nothing else. It also keeps my hands very busy, which most of my other coping options do not, and so I’m not picking up my phone constantly reading updates and such that are not always helpful or calming for me.

While looking for cute ideas on Pinterest the other night, I got lost, as I often do while browsing, in the world of bullet journals, and lettering, and such. Everything looks so cute, I wanted to be able to add things like that to my journals and planners, as I said I’m ALL IN here. The only problem is that I do not have a creative bone in my body, artistically I mean. I can write, I love to write, but art? Like drawing? I absolutely cannot, and I envy everyone who can because it’s a totally foreign thing to me. BUT what I realized is that if I wanted to incorporate these kinds of things into my journaling or planning they didn’t have to be super fancy or perfect because we’ll that’s not me anyway. So I did something super simple in the bullet journal part of Shelley’s planners, and it took my mind off of things for a while. It was simple and uncreative, yet it was exactly what I needed to do.

The point of this post is to one: Tell you of a new way I’ve managed to help my anxiety, especially in a time like this. My anxiety is really taking me for a ride, and even though I’m aware of it, it doesn’t mean I have a handle on it. I think that having something to control, like what I put in my planner, what color marker I chose to use, which stickers, what I end up putting into my bullet journaling helps because it is all something I CAN control, and for me, it’s important to find that.

The other point is to tell you that if you’re looking to start journaling or planning, Shelley’s planners are not only fantastic if you’re in the Supernatural or Harry Potter fandoms but the quality of them is AMAZING and I highly recommend them. There are so many little details in them that make them so special such as the Harry Potter characters birthdays in the Harry Potter planners, the pig in a poke logo on every Tuesday in the Supernatural planner, the stickers that come with the planner and the ones you can buy on her website to go with them. After the planners, I also bought the Sam Winchester Journal and the Supernatural smash journal. I’m using the Sam Winchester Journal to process my feelings about the shows ending and I plan on using the Supernatural smash journal as a way to celebrate it. All of which I have been SO happy with, and would recommend them to anyone and everyone.

Here is a little insight into what I’ve been doing with my planners! 

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The top picture is pretty much what I started with and then the second picture is almost all of what I have now, including the millions of different markers that are in that cute little blue bag I got at Target on clearance! I have rarely ever had a reason to go into Michaels before but I went in one day, real quick, just to grab some stickers and I ended up just walking around for half an hour because there was so much to chose from. Now I notice that no matter what store I go in (Before this quarantine business of course) I am always looking for more crafty things!

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Above, is first, my new journal. The one I mentioned that I’m writing out all the feelings I’m having over SPN ending. It’s been a great tool when I feel something erupting. The second and last picture are of the Supernatural smash journal that Shelley just recently released, it has the CUTEST designs inside, including the one I show here, and I think it’s a really great way to celebrate SPN.

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Remember above where I said I got lost in the bullet journal that I wish was fancy but I cannot art in any way? This is what I did. I just wrote out the 12 songs that I am REALLY loving right now. Some are new, some are older, but I currently have them all on repeat and they make me feel good. Honestly, the only reason all the squares on the left there are all the same size is because of the dots in the journal because otherwise, you’d be seeing many variations of squares and rectangles, I kid you not. I even had to practice drawing the doodles on the side beforehand because I knew I wouldn’t get it right the first time. It’s uncreative and not fancy but like I said I got the idea off of Pinterest and it took my mind off the world, and kept my phone out of my hands, for at least a little while.

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This planner is my Ravenclaw Harry Potter planner which I use for work hours, school assignments, appointments, events and so on. I’ve also recently been playing around with a mood tracker, that’s what those hearts are, I don’t know if I’ll keep this one or try something new but I think it’s a good thing to track for me. I’m also working on a plan to add some self-care tracking in here as well. At first, I thought that sticker placement needed to be properly placed but then I realized it’s my planner who really cares where I put them? I do love adding words on the left-hand side whether its song lyrics, quotes from the internet, a movie or a book and it usually coincides with how I’m feeling.

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This is my Supernatural planner! I use this one to plan out my blog posts because I’m really trying to focus on organizing those. I’m tracking book releases, TV shows, movie release days, and so on. I add quotes that are meaningful like the one I have on the last row of Tuesday which is from Glennon Doyle’s new book “Untamed”, The top square says “Family Don’t End in Blood” because SPN returned on Monday and then on the bottom of the left side I have a quote from season one of Roswell New Mexico because season two premiered on Monday night as well. On the right bottom side, I’m tracking how I’m feeling that week as well and I recently added a what I achieved this week section because even if it’s something small or “silly” it’s important to track the good along with the bad.  I’ve noticed that some weeks are full of things, and some weeks just are not and that it doesn’t matter how full the planner is! I do not know why I worry about these things, but I do. It’s not like I have a full calendar of outings to add because I’m an introvert and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I have not been sleeping well, I’m not as focused as I should be, I’m a little bit of a mess, BUT I’m really glad that I found something new to help. It wouldn’t have been possible to plan, but having this new escape came at the exact right time that I needed it with this pandemic. If you’re interested in what my Pinterest board looks like involving planning and journaling, click the icon on the home page and it will take it right to my page. And even more important if you like Harry Potter, if you like Supernatural if you’re thinking about planners and journals if you’re looking for a way to cope or celebrate the end of Supernatural if you want to support a member of the SPN Family, if you want to support small business; especially during a very difficult time as is right now, then go to https://conquestjournal.com/ and order some gorgeous items. They were also available on amazon but right now with the pandemic, amazon is only shipping out essential items, but keep it in mind when the world gets better. The Harry Potter planners are available from target online, I got mine here —> https://www.target.com/p/2020-harry-potter-conquest-planner-7-34-x-9-34-ravenclaw/-/A-76627237. I would also highly recommend following Shelley on Instagram @/conquestjournals, on twitter @/Quest_Journals for wonderful content including but not limited to when she’s having sales, or her products are available somewhere new, and she always gives the heads up when there is a Harry Potter movie marathon on TV, which I ALWAYS appreciate.

So there is my rant on planners, journaling, anxiety and my love of Con*Quest Journals! Do you have journaling or planner ideas? Do you have new ways of dealing with your anxiety that you want to share? Leave a comment, or send me a tweet @/amandaraee_x3 because I’m all ears!

Sci-Fi/Fantasy TV shows on Netflix to binge on!

I am a Sci-fi/ fantasy TV LOVER

and I know I’m not alone.

I know that so many are quarantined, whether self-induced or not, (stay inside, wash your hands, be smart, be safe <3). Also, it’s Sunday, and maybe someone is just looking for a few shows to dive into to end their days on a positive note. Either way, I thought it was a good time to browse through Netflix and find my favorite Sci-Fi TV shows that they have, that I would highly recommend for anyone who loves the genre and is looking for something! At the end, I also added six Netflix TV shows that are not sci-fi related and just as binge-worthy as the rest!

Let us jump in!

1. The Vampire Diaries—Created by Kevin Williamson and Julie Plec. Based on the books of L.J. Smith. Dive into the world of vampires, werewolves, witches, and humans combined with love, high school, secrets, and so much more. The first of what has turned into three installments of this wild, crazy world. Starring Ian Somerhalder, Nina Dobrev, Paul Wesley, Candice Accola-King, and many more. The show is wrapped, and there are eight seasons on Netflix.

2. The Originals—Created by incredible Julie Plec. Follow the first vampire family, through trials of life, love, revenge, family, and everything in between. The second installment of the vampire phenomenon that kicked off from TVD. Starring Joseph Morgan, Daniel Gillies, Phoebe Tonkin, Charles Michael Davis, Claire Holt, and more. The show is wrapped, and there are five seasons on Netflix.

3. Legacies—Created again by the incredible by Julie Plec. The third and current installment of this world follows a new generation in the same town of mystic falls. Studying at the Salvator School for the young and gifted brings together the daughter of Klaus, and the twin daughters of Caroline/Jo and Alaric along with other gifted kids who happen to be witches, vampires, werewolves, a phoenix, and there’s even a fairy. Fighting monsters, and navigating normal and supernatural life. Season one is on Netflix, season two is currently airing on TV. Starring Danielle Rose Russell, Kaylee Bryant, Jenny Boyd, Matthew Davis Aria Shahghasemi, Quincy Fouse, and many more.

(I would recommend watching TVD, then the Originals, and then Legacices if you really want to get truly engulfed in this stunning world).

4. Supernatural—Created by Eric Kripke. Saving people hunting things, the family business. Two brothers, angels, demons, the king of hell, a town drunk, a couple of wayward ladies, and many more intriguing characters bring us through an incredible fifteen season story. Starring Jared Padalecki, Jensen Ackles, Misha Collins, and many, many more. There are fourteen seasons currently on Netflix, with the fifteenth and final season wrapping up on the CW soon.

5. The Magicians—Created by the incredible Sera Gamble and John McNamara. Based on the novels of Lev Grossman. A world of secret academies, magical students, love, existence, new worlds, and danger around what ends up seeming to be around every corner. Starring Jason Ralph, Stella Maeve, Olivia Dudley, Hale Appleman, Summer Bishil, and more. There are four seasons on Netflix, with the fifth and final season finishing up on SYFY now.

6. V-Wars—Created by William Laurin and Glenn Davis. A Netflix original series with an ancient disease, vampire-like symptoms, a world is shaken up, and a doctor who is desperately trying to save it  Starring, Ian Somerhalder, Adrian Holms, Laura Vandervoort, and more. It currently has one season on Netflix, with the hopes of a season two still being awaited announcement.

7. The Order—Created by Dennis Heaton. This Netflix original brings us special universities with big secret societies, magic, monsters, family secrets, and more. Starring, Jake Manley, Sarah Grey, Adam Dimarco, and more. Season two is coming soon! One of my favorite accidental finds!

8. Roswell, New Mexico—Created by the ultra-talented Carina Adly MacKenzie. Get lost in a world with Cowboys, aliens, love, mystery, and so, so much more. Starring. Jeanine Mason, Nathan Parsons, Michael Vlamis, Tyler Blackburn, and many more. Season one is on Netflix, and season two will premiere on the CW on Monday! If you need any more reason to watch this one, check out my post here —> https://missraee.wordpress.com/2020/03/10/7-reasons-to-watch-roswell-new-mexico/

9. Colony—Created by Carlton Cuse. One of the most heartbreaking of cancellations I’ve encountered, I believe there was way more story to tell. Luckily though, it was able to be wrapped up decently. The takeover by outside forces, occupation vs. the rebellion, family, tragedy, and so much more. Starring Josh Holloway, Srah Wayne Callies, Peter Jacobson, Tory Kittle, and more. There are three seasons!

10. Bitten—Created by Daegan Fryklind. While it seems many sci-fi/fantasy TV shows focus on magic or vampires, this one is very werewolf centric. The battle between the animal and the human side of only living female werewolf, torn between her pack and her desire for more. Starring Laura Vandervoort, Greyston holt, Greg Bryk, and more. This was another accidental find that I wish had more time to tell more of a story, but again, it was able to wrap up quick beautifully. There are three seasons.

11. Legends of Tomorrow—Created by Greg Berlanti, Marc Guggenheim, Andrew Kreisberg, and Phil Klemmer. It was a must to add some superhero life into this list, and while I could have easily added Arrow, Supergirl, The Flash, and/or Black Lightening to this list, I felt the need to highlight this one instead. Bringing together heroes and villains, time-traveling to protect the timeline, crazy costumes, and incredible adventures. Starring Caity Lotz, Brandon Routh, Dominic Purcell, Maisie Richardson, Nick Zano, Tala Ashe, and more. There are four seasons on Netflix, and season five is currently airing on the CW.

12. Once Upon A Time—Created by Edward Kitsis and Adam Horowitz. Fairytales clash with the modern world in the most incredible way, with a little magic, a little love, a bunch of stories all wrapped up into one. Staring Lana Parrilla, Jennifer Morrison, Ginnifer Goodwin, Josh Dallas, Robert Carlyle, and more. All seven seasons are available on Netflix.

13. The 100—Created by Jason Rothenberg, A post-apocalyptic gem of a story that is very different than most shows. Based on a novel by Kass Morgan,  it stars Eliza Taylor, Bob Morley, Lindsey Morgan, Marie Avgeropoulos, and more. There are six seasons of Netflix with season seven coming to The CW later this year.

14. Stranger Things—Created by the Duffer Brothers, Matt, and Ross. Young kids, small town, incredible mystery, terrifying creatures that I thought might be a little too much for me, but thankfully me and my scaredy-cat self have powered through. Starring Millie Bobby Brown, Gaten Matarazzo, Finn Wolfhard, Noah Schnapp, Caleb McLaughlin, Winona Ryder, David harbour and more. All three installments of the show are on Netflix, and a fourth installment has been confirmed.

 

Bonus TV gems that are not non-sci-fi related, but so dang good:

1. YOU—Created by the incredible Greg Berlanti and Sera Gamble, a psychological thriller starring Penn Badgley that is so good and so insane you cannot look away. There are two seasons currently on Netflix.

2. Greys Anatomy—Created by Shonda Rhimes, an incredible Medical Drama starring Ellen Pompeo, Chandra Wilson, James Pickens JR., and more. There are fifteen seasons on Netflix with season sixteen airing right now on ABC.

3. Scandal— Also Created by Shonda Rhimes, Scandal is a political thriller that stars Kerry Washington that will blow you away. All seven incredible seasons are available on Netflix.

4. Virgin River—Based on the Virgin River novels by Robyn Carr, this romance drama was produced for TV by Reel World Management. Follow a nurse practitioner as she goes from big-time LA to a small town in northern California, searching for a change and gets so much more. Starring, Alexandra Breckenridge, Marin Henderson, Tim Matheson, Annette O’Toole, and more. What I thought was a regular romance movie, was a 10 episode TV show that gave me more than I bargained for.

5. Dead to me—Created by Liz Feldman. TV comedy with a whole lot of drama stars Christina Applegate and Linda Cardellini in an incredible 10 episode Netflix original with love, betrayal, friendship, grief, and so much more.

6. Shameless—Created by John Wells. Originally airing on Showtime, this comedy-drama follows the magnificently screwed up Gallagher family through their trials and tribulations of life. It’s so good, yet so messed up, and yet, you cannot stop watching. Starring Emmy Rossum, William H. Macy, Jeremy Allen White, Cameron Monaghan, Emma Kenney, and more. There are nine seasons on Netflix right now, with season ten wrapped on showtime a little while ago, and season eleven being the final season this is a great show to get lost in.

7 Reasons to watch Roswell, New Mexico!

I am always watching The CW. I watch just about every single show that they produce because they produce some damn good TV. For weeks I saw promos and commercials for Roswell, New Mexico, and it looked good. But I wasn’t quite sure I was sold. While the whole sci-fi vibe is my vibe, the alien vibe was still very new to me, BUT I took a chance on it anyway when the first season hit Netflix, and I promise you, I would have sorely regretted it if I had never turned this show on! What I had understood as being a show with cowboys and aliens was SO much more than that. (I never watched the original, so I truly had no idea what I was getting into). While I could make this post an entire love note to every single part of this outstanding hour of TV, I narrowed it down to seven. I also tried to avoid giving out spoilers at all costs, so while it might seem a little vague, it’s just enough to get you interested so you feel fired up to go find out for yourselves how great of a show this is. So here are 7 reasons you should watch season one of Roswell New Mexico right now, on Netflix, before it returns for season two on Monday, March 16th, on The CW at 9pm.

7 Reasons to Watch Roswell, New Mexico!

1. I took a chance on this show, first of all, because Carina MacKenzie developed it, she writes on it and so on. Ever since I watched her work on The Vampire Diaries and The Originals, I have determined I will follow her work ANYWHERE because she is extremely talented. She absolutely did not let me down here. Just made me admire her talent even more.

2. While it is most definitely a TV show about cowboys and aliens, it is also a show about love, family, friendship, complex emotions, death, prejudice, heartbreak, sexuality, fear, strength, consent, and so much more. The first season follows not one but pretty much three mysteries (IMO) that are mapped out and told in such a brilliant way.

3. The representation and perspective that plays a role into every scene is incredible. It is an incredibly diverse television show that takes you on a journey through many different perspectives of the same world, the same story, the same town. It’s a truly special experience.

4. The character of Michael Geurin played by Michael Vlamis, try not to fall in love with him, I absolutely dare you. Between the writing, and Vlamis’s ability to bring this character to life, he quickly became a favorite.

5. The character of Liz Ortecho. To me, she is a strong, powerful, smart, yet vulnerable woman who quite clearly has built a cage around herself in order to protect herself. Still, at the same time, she cannot help but be there for everyone, whether it’s her father, it was her sister, her friends (I truly relate to this). And the way that Jeanine Mason portrays her… she knocks everything out of the park. Liz Ortecho makes things happen, remember that.

6. The one-liners and heartfelt speeches. I’m a sucker for a good one-liner and a heart-pounding speech and this show delivers on all cylinders for both. I’m trying to give anything away but a couple of my favorites are :

  • “Welcome to the party. It’s a real bisexual alien blast around here.” The deliverance of this line is gold.
  • Person one: …And then you look away, and I remember all over again, and it almost kills me. Every time.”
    Person Two: “I never look away, not really.” – You’ll get it when you watch the scene.
  • You’re not my person, ****. That’s why I didn’t want to tell you my secret. I don’t love you. I never did.” – This quote is so much more powerful than it looks without context. Trust me.

7. There is no drawn-out beginning. Sometimes it’s necessary for the first few episodes of a new show to set the vibe, right? But sometimes it does more harm than good. In Roswell, New Mexico, the show starts off with a bang. You jump right in, within minutes, and it’s incredible. And the best part is that in doing that, it’s also not rushed. Which I feel is something that isn’t always mastered (and that’s my opinion as someone who really loves TV and movies), but Roswell does an excellent job with it.

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Jeanine Mason, Nathan Parsons, Michael Vlamis, Tyler Blackburn, Michael Trevino, Lily Cowles, Heather Hemmens, Trevor St. John and anyone who makes guest appearances such as the wonderful Riley Voelkel, come together to make an outstanding cast (and a very good looking one if I might add that in). I’ve always been one to appreciate the acting, and I’m always in love with the writing, but the way the scenes are shot, the cinematography of them is incredible too. I was hook before the first episode ended, and when episode thirteen was over, I was left demanding more, right away, which, of course, was not possible. However, I still wanted it, and I’ve been anxiously awaiting the trailers and official air dates ever since.

We are now less than one week away from the season two premiere, which, as I said airs Monday, March 16th at 9pm, right after my other favorite TV show, Supernatural. There are only thirteen episodes in season one, I might be a real good binge watcher, but I’d have to say there is PLENTY of time between now and 9pm on Monday to jump on Netflix and watch a seriously incredible hourish of television. I’m truly considering preparing myself by doing a re-watch over the weekend if my school workload permits, and I truly hope it does because I’d love to watch the first season of magic before season two drops!

If you do decide to watch, and you REALLY should watch, hit me up over on @/amandaraee_x3 and live tweet along with me!

Miss Raee.

Miss Raee was launched in 2016 by a lady with anxiety who loves to write, watch TV and Movies, recently found her activist voice, is in love with reading, animals and the environment (and so much more!), and decided to put it all together into this platform. You can also follow me on twitter at @/amandaraee_x3 or Instagram at @/amandaraeex3 ! See you there.

Xoxo.

Miss Raee.

27 fun facts about me.

Back in 2017, a little bit after I first started this blogging thing, I made 52 things about me list. Reading it back I realized that some things were still very true, but it deserved an update anyhow. I also don’t think 52 things were all that necessary, so this time I narrowed it down to 27. I tried to stay away from simple questions like favorite foods and holidays; things like that, but a couple easy ones slipped in. Also, I’m a vegetarian, and live a cruelty-free life as much as possible, these are things my blog explains pretty clearly so I skipped these things as well.

Let us jump in.

 I have recently become obsessed with buying make-up, yet I still have no idea what I’m doing. I’ll figure it out one day.

I have a plethora of books on my To Be Read pile, yet I cannot stop buying them.

I can watch re-runs of a lot of shows, but none more than NCIS LA, Golden Girls, Everybody Loves Raymond.

Star Wars, Supernatural, Harry Potter and Marvel are my ultimate fandoms, although I have many more.

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I sleep best when it’s chilly, and I have a cozy blanket.

I prefer vanilla ice cream over chocolate, non-dairy, of course, and Oreo is my favorite.

I have chapstick on me at all times.

Sunflowers are my favorite, followed by daisies.

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I’m obsessed with combat boots and flannels

I have an odd fascination with birds, which I think stems from always watching them as a kid with my Nana.

I truly believe in the vibes people give off. I know what my first impression of someone is by how I feel around them. I’ve never been wrong.

Chips and Queso are my absolute weakness.

Meredith Grey, from Greys Anatomy, is my spirit animal

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I am truly a better person when the weather is warmer, spring/fall kind of warmth. If it’s humid, forget it.

My taste in music stretches far across genres. From Dolly Parton to Lizzo to George Strait, to Eminem, to Taylor Swift, to A day to remember, to state champs, to Demi Lovato to Maren Morris. If there is a good message and a good sound, I’m here of it.

I will always take salty over sweet, but Swedish fish, Andes, and Recess are my favorite candies.

I’m a junior in college, and while I have a major, I’m still unsure of exactly what I want to do, and it’s terrifying me.

Sara Lance is my favorite DCTV character with Felicity Smoak as a close second.

The ocean is still my happy place, with camping right up there as well.

Vodka used to be my ultimate drink of choice, but now Tequilla is my drink of choice.

I hate cleaning. But when I have to, and I get into a zone, I clean everything at once.

I love movies, but I cannot do scary movies. No matter how good it might look, or how stacked the cast.

I am terrified of clowns, heights, and snakes. And I’m pretty sure I always will be.

My Grandpa was my favorite person, and his death still gets to me even five years later.

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I am a cheap person. $25 for a t-shirt? I think not. Yet I also love fashion.

I credit Jared Padalecki with saving my life in terms of confronting, learning, and understanding my mental health. I have anxiety, and I don’t know if I ever would have figured myself out if he hadn’t been honest and open about his struggle.

I’ve always been in love with the process of movies and TV. Directing, writing, acting, cinematography, wardrobe, stunts, all of it.

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I have had this blog for over three years now, and I’m still trying to figure it out. I feel like that’s how I’m handling lots of things. I’m just figuring it out. Things change a lot, what I’m into, what I’m feeling, how I deal with things, what I think I want vs. what I need. If nothing else, I am an ever-growing person. If you want to see what I mean, you can read my 52 things about me list from 2017—-> https://missraee.wordpress.com/2017/09/20/oh-you-didnt-know/   and see what stuck out about me then, vs. what stuck out about me today, because in both lists I wrote what came to mind.

Until the next time that I feel like sharing some more nonsense,

xoxo.

 

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